Sorry for long time no chat.. I’ve been on my mission field.
It’s easy for me to feel like a don’t have a purpose. I was used to waking up, getting ready for work, working and helping people all day long, and then coming home to my family. I used to use my vacation time to go overseas and serve on the mission field doing dentistry. I also used to wash my hair regularly… but we won’t go there. 😉 I had a sense of purpose every day… and tangible things I could point to and say I had done.
Now that I stay home with my kiddos, there are some days that seem make me want to throw my hands in the air and make me wonder what on earth I’m doing. Days of temper tantrums, poop, spit up, and whining, where I have nothing to show for my hard work. Those days can be tiring. Right when I’m about to reach my breaking point, God always sends someone to lift me back up and encourage me.
More than once, I’ve had a friend to encourage me on my hard days and remind me that this is my mission field. God has placed these babies in my life for me to minister to them.
Right when I’m feeling like I don’t have a purpose, I remind myself of what my good friend keeps telling me— that I’m on my mission field. My purpose is to love these babies, wipe snotty noses, kiss boo-boos, and teach them about Jesus. Just the other day, I met with a sweet friend of mine who took a huge leap of faith and quit her job to stay home with her kids. It is hard to lay down your life and dreams to invest in your children at times. Sounds so selfish to say it, but it is the truth.
I sometimes just really want to eat my breakfast while it’s hot, take a shower, get in a good workout, go to the grocery without screaming kids, and eat my dinner sitting down with my husband…. then I realize what I would be missing. I would be missing the two greatest and most precious gifts God has entrusted to me and I immediately take it all back. We waited years to be inconvenienced, busy, and a little crazy.
I may not be jet setting to Colombia or Brazil anymore for medical missions, but I am in the trenches everyday in my personal mission field. Nothing is more important to me than teaching my two little babies about Jesus, their ABC’s, and dancing to the hot-dog song.
Thank you to my sweet and dear friends and husband who constantly remind me of how important my role of Mommy is, and how God can use it to touch little hearts.
Welcome to my mission field. It isn’t exotic or flashy. It is messy, loud, and completely wonderful. Thank you Jesus for this calling. Thank you for allowing me to be mommy on this mission field. Equip me to teach them to love YOU.
Mamas out there who are in need of a bit of encouragement, you are on your own mission field. Whether you work or stay at home, you are your influence impacts your kiddos for the rest of their life. Mama is your hardest and most rewarding job…. even if it doesn’t pay much. 😉