Being a “grown up” is all about making decisions, sometimes big, hard decisions. If you know me at all, you know I’m super indecisive and I always struggle to make decisions. Thankfully, I married a very decisive person!
It was about this time two years ago that I posted about my big, hard decision to only go back to work part time after Baby D was born. I remember how grieved I was to go back to work and leave him. Eventually it got easier, yet I still felt like I was missing out.
The older he got, and the more he was discovering and learning, the more I felt like I was missing out.
As you know, I was extremely sick with hyperemesis gravidarum during my pregnancy, so working was out of the question. I was throwing up so much that I had to quit my new job around 12 weeks. No one wants a dental hygienist that throws up while cleaning their teeth… I mean gross!
Okay Brittany, so this was like 9 months ago, why are you just now telling us this?? Well, pride for one, and I thought I would go right back to work after Baby Girl was 8- 10 weeks old.
Baby Girl will be 13 weeks soon, and I have no desire to go back to work. Baby D is talking up a storm, learning new things daily, and really coming into his own personality wise. Baby Girl is nursing and I feel like I am nursing her every 5 minutes. I don’t want to miss a minute of this crazy life!
So, if you haven’t caught my drift yet…. We have decided that I am going to stay home with the kiddos for now. I will keep up with my continuing education and work a little bit just to keep up my license, but nothing permanent for now. Thankfully, I have some really good friends who are dentist here to hook me up with some temporary/ fill in jobs.
I’ve heard it all from ‘what do you do all day’? That one really makes me laugh! Or, ‘you have a master’s degree and you are staying home with kids??!?’. Yep… sure am. And no, I don’t feel like I’m “throwing away my education”. In fact, I wonder if I can add ‘professional diaper changer’ to my resume. 😉
This decision was not made lightly. Sure, it was thrust upon me suddenly when I got sick, but it is something I have always wanted to do. I just don’t think I would have ever taken the plunge if I hadn’t gotten sick and wasn’t working my new job. If I were still working at my former job, it would have been a much harder decision. The thought of going back to work on a permanent basis after being home about made me sick. I’m not saying I’ll never work again, but for now this is where I need to be.
Sure, I definitely have some days where I want to pull out my hair and think to myself ‘I’m over it, I’m going back to work!’. Then, Baby D will smile at me and call me momMMEEEE and I melt. Forget I said anything… I’m perfectly content right where I’m at. I’m so blessed that God gave me these two babies to care for and an extremely hard working husband that supports me and makes it possible for me to stay home with our babies.
Thank you Jesus for my sweet family and the honor of being momMEEE to these babies.